I havent updated in 2 months. thats a long ass time. well. i had sch a kick ass weekend it was non stop. guud shit. friday i saw dawn of the dead with Jessica, Ryan and Tim, it was hella good. nothing like the first. than we went to jack in the box and just chilled. that was good to. fun, than, tim and i went to barrys and Ang was there. tim left after we al picked up trent. Than Trent, me and Angie went to the park. our park, b! lmao, o mexican chicks. than i went over to angies. we ate rive krispies and taled to sleep. than when we woke ang and i went to my ouse and had breakfast. i had to clean up and take a shower and shit so Angie went to Jessica Rita's. Than when i was done, we wen to the resivior and ill succesfully tanned. And han we BBQ'd, it was grand. Than, Linds came, Susana, Ashley Tim and Ryan came over. we roasted marshmellows (minus the guys). o man, i had to climb out the window on to the roof and get the marshmellows that i acccidently trew on the roof. anyhoo, we hung out for a lil and than me, linds, ryan and tim went to the drive ins, hella late we saw 50 1st dates AGAIn, i swear it eas he 3rd time i saw it. than we saw Starsky and Hutch. that was guuud. than we went back to Tims. Tim and Ryan got drunk and we looked at porn, gross. but not really, finallly we went to bed around like 3, 4/. Tims stupid fukin annoying ass dumb shit poo alarm. its so annoying. anyways, it was akward cuz tims family was there and we cldnt snek out, Ryan had already left. so, at like 11 Ryan picked us up. and we went to all our houses and icked up crap. Me, my sister.,Linds and Ryan all went (we missed barry). me and linds tried to skim board, i hella fell. OMG. at the drive ins i asked Ryan for a piggy back ride and miss judged my jump by 2 feet, well, we both went down, hard and fast, it was funny and hurt. but, more fun than pain. anyway i went with my dad to drop off arielle and saw my mommy! i got my bathing suits and flip flops. it was grand. i went to bed kinda late cuz i was talking to someone....ut it was worth it. ; D.well, bbbyes
dude. on saturday and sunday i was grounded, so i did nothing, linds stayed till 5 but, wutev. than i did jack and shit. monday, jessica, tim, barry, lindsey and serena all came over. we all sat around eating, i felt like a big ittalian family. it was grand. than yesterday, i hung out with serena, tim and ryan. im sorry we cldnt habg out bear!! i love you. and today im going to hang out wi;th tim, and i dont know who else, i cant wait to go to starbucks! thats all folks
i havent updated in like forever, so here it goes. New Years eve day i hung out with linds, bear, tim and susana. than, new years eve night we went down to tims in the moutains it was great. you know. the porn we found was sooo wierd and gross. than new years day, i woke up and went in susana and barrys room (erics old one) and susana was like, nicole! come on in, and we waked and baked. than when we all went to drink apple cider i snuck a few shots of everclear. we drove back down and had fun. than the 2nd was winter ball. i got ready all day and linds came over and we got all done up and had a little lift me up drinky poo. than went to the dance. that was fun. than 2 or so hours in, tim, serena, me and serena bf went to nicks party. i got fukin waisted. than, it got kinda boring, so me anf tim went to dennys. than i went home. saturdy me and linds and tim and bear chilled. me and lindsey had to walk all over cuz we cldnt get a damn hold of tim. lol. sunday was HELLA fun. i hung out with ryan, tim and bear. we demolished things with there toys from the flea market. than we picked serena and watche a movie. UGH! i was sooo not ready for school to start, but it was ok. after school i chilled with serena, ryan and tim. lol, it was fun. than on tuesday i hung out with bear and linds and got yellled at for being home at 630. wednesday was real fun. i hung out with susana, linds, tim, ryan and bear. we made cookies. (me, susana, tim and linds) than ryan came over and we got bear. than me, tim and barry burned a bunch of things and tims note book using my hairspray. lol, than THURSDAY. y'all know about that. whale watching trip. tim:busted. than home: both of us busted. ugh. it was a day of getting caught for all. i was thinking about last years whale watching trip. it was the greatest. it hella bounded us. friday was hella fun. me, barry, linds and aurora went to wendys and chilled. than we picked up susana and jessica, and ryan met up. it was great. all of us together again. *smiles big* susana had to go home, *sad face*. so, me, jessica, tim, bear, ryan, and linds didnt really watch the two worst movies at the drive-in, but, it was still fun. lots. linds slept over and we watched almost famous, fell asleep sometime. snd today i have done absolutly nothing. yay. ok bbbyes!!
love you all!
<3 to most
ps. gas to get to my house: $2 gas to leave my house: $3 tims face when i made it seem like m dad was behind him: priceless....f-in priceless
mkay.....so, its 11:38, december, 23, 2003. and im about to get my hair died. b/c my mom hates my hair. nice, huh? well, this morning around 5am the phone rang and my mommy came in my room and picked it up and handed it to me and was like *groggy, but sewwt and gentle voice* (lol) "its tim" and i was like, "mommy, i would of answerd" But that came out " ahhwahh haawahh" and my mom was like "uhh huuh" lol. any hoo. i ever so slowly jolted out of bed and put on jeans and a sweatshirt and make up and grabbed my shoes and a blanket, and waited downstairs. and than my tim came : D. it was so nice. we were gunna go out to breakfast. but, we didnt. mainly b/c we fell asleep and we were having a good time just cuddling : D. yay. plus. i dont know any breakfast place open at 6 am. so. now im procrastinating and not getting ready and im totaly relaxed and my mom is freaking out. (as usual) and my mommy says good bye i love you to: linds, jessica, susna and tim, she really likes you guys.
ps. if tim can haul his ass down here. so can the rest of you fuckers, find a way to visit me. ; ).
LOVE
<3 to most.
ILL MISS YOU
GOOD BYE
saying goodbye is the hardest part.
i had two of the best goodbyes EVER. thank you baby.
ok, really bbye everyone
expect a call. SHIT, my cell isnt working. fuck. o well.
lol. thats the only way i can rember to spell beautiful. b4 that bruce all mighty i always spelled it wrong. lol. so, today i woke up at 6:15/6:30 on the dot for every hour 'till 9:15. lol. than i got up and took a shower and got ready and Tim came over!! (im at my moms for anyone who didnt know) . i was so happy. i really didnt want to spend my last full day alone. and we didnt have a satifactory good-bye the other day. so, yah. that was fun. he came around 10:30/11. and we hung out watching some of What Lies Beneath but, didnt finish it, cuz my mom took us out to lunch. me, my sister, tim, and my mom ate at fresh choice. o man, i eat so strangly. i hate when people see me eat. its embarising. lets see. than we went to see Bad Santa, that was reeally funny. guud. than we got candy. o it was such a cuuuute store. there was an old lady behind the counter who was so nice. and all the candy was in old fashioned candy things and she got the candy for me, o, i just thought it was addorable. than we went to my moms pre-school. for just a little while. and than we walked down burlingame ave., went into all the yuppy stores. and he saw the difference between a tux and a suit. and, i dunno. we walked all around, and than we went to the sto' with my mama. and it was fun. than we hung out in my room. my sister kept barging in. she acctually came in and sat on my bed. and stayed there. for like, 10 min, i was like ummm, ok. *silence*.....*cricket, cricket*.....*ahem*. than tim had to leave. it was the best good bye ever. your so adorable, baby. lol. sad, diffently sad goodbye, but good, very romoantic. ummm....than i went back in and ate my mommys spegetti....its the greatest.
well. i suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuure am gunna miss everyone. SOOOOO MUCH. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Miss like hell....
susana, linds, jessica, tim, bear, ang, serena, mike c., ally, ryan f.
---not in any order, really---
well, those are the people i c reguarly/ hang out with a lot....people i dont, but will miss.....
scotty, sean, yusef, jer jer, jon the candian, luisa, lo, ryan M.
----even though i hardly see most those people or hang out w/ 'em (often)-----
theres more people i will miss. but, they (a) dont have lj (b) i do love, but for some reason cant remeber so yah. dont feel pooed. doesnt mean i wont miss you or dont love you, just i am a giant brain fart and pre-distracted. so HAWAIII is TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!! woot woot
i think i was gunna right more
i have no idea what im thinking. cant not thinking about what i Am thinking about, which make me not think. ugh
im at my mommys right now. going to HAWAII tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!! YESH!
pre-p.s. im sorry if talking about getting high or drunk bothers people. but, im not bragging, it was just a part of my day, and im sorry if that upsets you.
tuesday: o yes. i remember. i went over to central. i saw a few people, like there always is. I feel real uncomfortable 'round a bunch of people. So, me, Serena and Ally went to POPIES! Serena got some chiken, i had a piece and a biscuit. good shit! than i got a freee coffee, on a count a the chicks workin there knew me. or? i knew them.....hmmmmm. than i went to bears. as usuall. i love you barry. o yah. than ryan and tim and linds showed up and we all went to the park. o man, that was fun. i got all messy and muddy and barry fell on me. than i went to the giving tree with ang. that was fun. and when i went home i got two new chores assigned to me! o yah, cuz i dont do enough work as it is.
wednesday: Lets see hurr. i dont have my calender. and i cant. o wait, i remember. me, linds, barry, tim, ryan f, ryan n and jessica m went to barrys. it was fun. than timmy took me home at 5ish. it was real fun, as i left jessica and ryan were arguing about who gets to go to LOTR.....little did i know what would turn out....LMAO. than i went to din din with my mama. fun shit
thursday: ummm....linds came over after school. ang gave me a preasant. it was cuute. and hannuka-ey, lol. lindsey and i finished our projects. i knew i'd get it done the day b4 it was due. i never learn. my dad said my project "wasnt good" : /. lol, me linds and tim went to kinkos. the guy knew we had to get our projects laminated. than me and tim went to the mall and lost his car, who knew there were 2 garages.
friday: (first night of HANNUKAH) lets see. school was pooey. me and linds played out in the rain for like 2 hours. we had an indian tea party and played fallow the leader and opstical course. lol. than we went to bears. and susna and barry and ryan and tim was there. than we went home. and i had dinner and got a kick ass hat. and went back out, and got stoned off my ass. and we looked at a house. and i just want to say: i always get what i want. tee hee.
saturday: the none santa cruz day. lol, linds came over around noon. and susana called! im sorry i couldnt call you back. we didnt go. i know you just wanted to hang out. but, poeple were to drunk to pick you up. still love ya. ryan picked up me and linds and we went to bears. lins and i had like, 3? shots of everclear. that shit will fuck you up!!! i was so drunk. fun shit. ummm, we walked around and than me and linds shared the rest of what was left of tims 40. than we went to a school and 7-11 and i went pee. and it was fun 'till i felt like i had to barf. but, than we went back to barrys, and we rented movies. and i had nice chats with tim and barry, i feel closer to them. : D. ummm....ok
*ryans (f) priceless face*
today: woke up kinda late. stared at my suitcase hopping it would pack iytself. **newsflash**: they dont. lol. than tim came over and gave me this necklace i wanted and a bellybotton ring ive wanted for a longass time. and these cute earing that are dangly and he noticed i dont normally were dangly earings. god, i love you baby. ummm....than i went to meveryns and walgreens and got a cute new shirt.
k, s'all.
****it is scary how much love you can have for one person***
so, lets see...ill end at the begining and begin with the end.
FRIDAY : regular school day. nothing stands out of my memoey that anything important enough to write down happend. ummmmmm...after school tim picked me and susana and barry and droped us off at barrys (park) that is. and him and mike went off. so, anyhoom. me, barry and susana got high. and dont be pooey about it b/c i havent done it in a really long ass time and i was stressed, so it made me feel better. lol, it was funny. i got preeeeeeety high. ummmm, susana went home and me and bear hung out. yup. hung out. "i'm brain welles"....."its fellows"...."im brain fellows, thats-"......."your not brain fellows!" damn it. was that ever confusing to me!! than barrys dad got us taco bell. i ate so much. than, me, ryan and tim went to Stuck On You. it was eh. not bad, not great. o well. than i went home, my dad talks so much. half the time i never know wtf hes talking about. lol
SATURDAY: umm, ummmm.....o yah. ANGIE (</a></b></a>above_it_all ) came over and we hung out. it was grand. we went to barrys for a little while. than had din din together. thats a hoot. i watched a couple movies with my sis, in my room.
SUNDAYthats was borring for most the day. woke up late. well, stayed in bed for a while.b/c i didnt want to deal with my family. than we ate breakfast and i washed the kitchen like the slave i am. lol, jk. i was frozen, so i took a hot shower. and. my dad left for some reason or other and my sister and i chilled. we rastled for a little. cuz i was that bored. all in fun. than tim picked e up and we went to barrys. and barry and trent went to smoke. and barry or trent asked if i was gunna take a hit...well, if oppertunity knocks, i answer and give it a <b> real big hug </b>. lol. than tim left somewere....near the gas statiuon. i was watching the pretty trian xmas deceration while the guys were yammering about something. ummm....than me, trent and bear went on an adventure. walking around that is. lmao. EB Games. "Could we play the games?" -Trent. o, how grand. thann as we were crossing the street walking to barrys this guy was there on a bike, and had <b> a lot </b> of KFC.....i just happend to mention that, out loud. and barry and trent looked at me like i said something awful.
MONDAY: pretty good day at school. i love you babe : ). you make me happy. my mom picked me up ay 130. YAY. that made me happy. no french. woot woot. what else. we had sushi, i got a flu shot. thats an owie. ummm, i love reading to kids. i love reading little kid stories. ok, not a lot else to say.
the other day, i was sitting at home watching Full House. And in this episode Michelle's 1st grade best friend "Teddy" has to leave to texas. And that made me cry. i know how she feels. not only did i loose a best friend, or a sister or a huge part of my life. but, a part of me, is lost and gone. I have deepest and upmost respect for you. i look up to you and love you more than you will know. that is why i can respect, not necisarly like or even understand, your dissition. so, i know eventually things will fizz out slow down, get somewhat back to a "normal". but, i know it will never be the same, for that, i am sorry. i am sorry for w/e i did had to come to such a drastic point.
in other news.... i've been hanging out with barry and tim lately. we have boring fun. but, fun. they are the most borring lazy asses i know. and i saw my mommy last night, she always makes me feel better, i love that.
GOD I HATE THINGS sometimes. i really do. they are so annoyinh take example this f-in computer. i dont know. i wish i was a cry-er i might feel better if i could just cry. last night i had a dream. it was pretty crazy and told a lot. i criede than. i havent really had a good cry in a while. and i really miss my darling. 4 days now. thats almost the longest time away from her. talked to my darling at lunch, only a slight howdy doo. woah man, i gotta talk to ya linds. well thats all for now. i still have a fatty head ach and im in a pooey mood.
i wrote this last night when i got home.....still a little drunk omg. tonight was so fun, drank, wooooo hoooo, than me, linds and susana ran around w/o our shirts on! they saw my boobs! ( so did barry) tee hee. man, i am sooooooooooooooooo horny right now. and tired so i guess ill sleep. i had a blast tonight. just wish i coulda stayed out longer. o wel. it was so so so so so much better than last years. so much love you all very much ps. saw randy and katie today pps. im so so so sorry and thank you to my friend
today: apparantly last night i spilled somthing and neglected to pick it up. this morning my dad said "did you spill something last night?" and i was like "n....yes" and he said "and you didnt clean it up, huh?" lmao i have no idea what i spilled. so, today i went to the nutcracker. omg. it was beatiful. i love the theater i love ballets. i love everything that has to do with ballets. the costumes were sooooSOOO beatiful and the stage was extravigant. i loved it, it makes me so happy to see people do what they love and do it well. but, it was thew same exact place were our class went last year. which brought up real good and terriblly awful horid memories. but, time has passed. righty o. love you all, newest: i do stupid things. i addmit this. i am an idiot. i addmit this. i can be a total jackass. i also will admit that. i can say i am deeply sorry for what i did. more sorry than i can discribe. i work on impulse and dont think sometimes. i am not use to the whole commited thing, i am working on it. but, just to let others know, they dont need to. what goes on to me and other people is mine and the other persons damn bussiness. i told the person of which whom it concerns the most and i dont think anyone else should put their two cents in. i dont agree with that. some people judge me, well to judge someone you have to know them and lets face it, a lot of people dont know me as well as they think.
i want to say more. but, i cant and wont for all to read on lj. a lot of shit had been going down, other stuff besides the drama crap. ummm....i suppose thats all.
i am at jessicas right now MAC N' CHEESE!!!! o yea, havent had that in a while. i miss hngin out with you jessica. (harshin my mellow) but sugar on my cherios w/ you.
speaking of mellow. i'd like to be in a mellow state. its like, chill, i like that.
ps. even though barry doesnt have lj. he has my passcode. thank you bear. thank you for all your listening and trust i love you.
DAMN IT jessica knows why. hahahahhahaha. same hign happend to you.
Jessica is sitting right next to me, angie is sitting right behiind me, and racheal is staking books over yonder. they're the only ones i'm happy with being here. but other than that i just want all these other peeople to leave. they are bothering me.
ok.. so today i woke up and i was HELLA tired. than my dad gave me a lecture b4 i went to school. w/e! so, on my way walking to sevy with mike and serena, i think to myself...im not gunna talk today. i want to see how much i can voice w/o talking. because sometimes silence is louder than words. i wanted to see if anyone would notice. and you know who did?? all of three people. yes, 3, thats all....not even my own bf....how dare you. lol. so pople who noticed....froot, susana, ray....tn that order, i love you guys!!! especcially my love *MAUH*....ok, and other people i didnt need to even say anything to talk o them... serena told me to "shut up" twice. and jessica thinks i said "thank you, i love you, bye" by just giving her a kiss. wow. anyhoo, the day isnt over and im thinking more fun to come. or sheer boredome well, i love you all so very much
so today was a good day. i woke up nicely and expholeated my arms. lol, i took a long time to take a shower just because i can. than i got ready and tim came over and we sat on my couch descusing, him going to first or not. lol. than we went to 7vy and saw mike and other people. and i got out and right back in with mike. lol. than we went to school. scool was great. everyone liked my skirt. : D. I AM PETER. lol. that was fun. i love having all my shit in everyones lockers, lol. anyhoo. i hat sometimes when we talk about things in physcology and it hits you in the right spot, you know. like a blow to a soft spot. but, i got better quicker. and having short classes was good. so, all around today was a good day. GUUD. than after school me and Linds walked home. im not suppose to have poeple over but, "her dad cldnt pick her up 'til 630, and i didnt want her to be alone" which turned out trure anyways. my dad and hers were stuck in the same traffic. lol. so we had a lot of fun. we saw micheal walking and i talked to my barry on the phone!!! i miss my bear. tee hee. than i went back in after walking my darling out and who do i sees called me? ANGIE..i was all "yay! angie called" and i called her back but, her house was busy. TO ANGIE: "im sorry i missed you, but i couldnt have done anything anyways, cuz my dad came home. sowwy! I LOVE YOU!!" thats all i guess. i love bellpeppers. just thought id say that. i havent hung out w/ jessica in a while. or susana. which i want to. im buying (maybe) my winter ball dress this weekend!!! hoooooorah.
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